Typical School Blues

I’m sure alot of people feel this way often. Its this pressing need to do work, and all e deadlines crawling closer by the minute, yet you’re without any motivation to do any work. Thats whats i’m feeling right now. The usual has happened again, I lost interest in school work, lost my motivation to do work.

It probably is the lack of satisfaction that i always feel. For all of you who missed it, here are my results.

Accounting : 93/100
Business Computing Applications : 80.5/100
Macroeconomics : 16.5/20

Many of you may ‘wow’ at my results, yet i feel nothing. I feel increasing distressed, depressed, tired, and bored. In fact, I haven’t felt satisfied for the most part of my life, leading up to now. In fact, the only reason i’m still alive is all thanks to temporary gratification, i.e. games, music. Yet these activites occupy time required for the essential work.

Pirorities wise, i know for certain i need grades and higher qualifications to survive in this society, yet sub-consciously, i feel incomplete without any satisfaction. Witihout satisfaction, i have no motivation to accomplish my pirorities either, cuz in my eyes, life itself is meaningless and pointless, correction, the entire concept of existance.

Ironically, i’m learning maslow’s hierarchy now. its this theory that states that a person is always motivated by his lowest unsatisfied need. From highest to lowest, Self-Actualization, Esteem, Belongingness, Safety, and Physiological.

Although i dispute it, i.e. koreans who play until they die.. its interesting to look at it in my perspective. Apparently, my only unsatisfied need is the highest level, Self-Actualization, which i believe i might never achieve. In fact, the idea is so abstract that i can’t identify any means as to which i might achieve that.

Well i guess thats all for now. For now, i’ll continue living off temporary satisfactions, until eventually nothing remains